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| *love's an excuse to get hurt* |
[13 Nov 2004|09:57pm] |
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whoo we mann i love kailey!
she just made my whole weekend!
hahaa hilarious stuff.
i love her! lol.
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| *she said oh yes you can just hold my hand...* |
[13 Nov 2004|07:19pm] |
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The rain it started tappin'
On the window near my bed
There was a loophole in my dreamin'
So I got out of it
And to my surprise my eyes were wide and already open
Just my nightstand and my dresser
Where those nightmares had just been
So I dressed myself and left then
Out into the gray streets
But everything seemed different
And completely new to me
The sky the trees, houses, buildings, even my own body
And each person I encountered
I couldn't wait to meet
And I came upon a doctor
Who appeared in quite poor health
I said there's nothing that I can do for you you can't do for yourself
He said oh yes you can, just hold my hand, I think that that would help
So I sat with him awhile
Then I asked him how he felt
He said I think I'm cured
No, in fact, I'm sure of it
Thank you, stranger
For your therapeutic smile
So that's how I learned the lesson
That everyone's alone
And your eyes must do some raining
If you're ever gonna grow
And when crying don't help
You can't compose yourself
It's best to compose a poem
An honest verse of longing
Or a simple song of hope
That's why I'm singing baby don't worry
'Cause now I got your back
And every time you feel like crying
I'm gonna try and make you laugh
And if I can't
If it just hurts too bad
Then we'll wait for it to pass
And I will keep you company for those days so long and black
And we'll keep working on the problem
We know we'll never solve
Of love's uneven remainders
Our lives are fractions of a whole
But if the world could remain within a frame
Like a painting on a wall
Then I think we'd see the beauty then
We'd stand staring in awe
At our still lives posed
Like a bowl of oranges
Like a story told
By the fault-lines and the soil
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| *well look up at the sky..* |
[13 Nov 2004|04:26pm] |
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i am who i am
who i am, well
who am i?
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| *god its hard to say...* |
[07 Nov 2004|04:45am] |
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well this weekend was eventful, friday i hung out with a cool person, and saturday i was sick, and i did nothing.. Alexis was over at Bryans house and so i basectly just watched a bunch of movies and stuff. im glad i ended up not having to do anything because i felt terrrrible.. but anywhoo today i did not much and so now its homework time ((ughh)) and me and Alexis are gonna was MEAN GIRLS!! i LOVE that movie, its the best. and tomorrow is the Taking Back Sunday concert.. YeaH YEAHH! im so excited.. SOO excited.. i hope things work out and we can go, or else.. i will be crushed..
<3
((somebody told me that you had a boyfriend that looked like a girlfriend..))
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| *remember when you broke your foot from jumpin off the second floor* |
[02 Nov 2004|09:01am] |
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i need to listen to Bright Eyes right now.. i have the biggest urge but i cant find any of my music! EEP! not good, well today was another useless day at school.. i dont even know why i think sometimes it will be a good day because its always not.. oh well me and jada are optomistic buddies from now on and we can only be OPTOMISTIC ((hint the name)) but im really stressed out about some things.. and i dont know what to do! but one thing is that today is obviously election day and im just really nervous about this whole election. everyone keeps saying a bunch of stuff like "this is the biggest thing ever, it can change the rest of your lives!" it kinda stresses me out.. and school and everything i just wanna be able to get good grades and live up to expectation i guess? i dont really know if thats the right words.. im just really confused and emotional about a lot of things and im going to counciling now. my first appointment is on thursday. im kind of nervous about it probably because the only other experience with councilors was a bad one.. it was the whole custody battle when my parents first got divorced. ahh oh well. but i think the only think i look forward to in the day is Photography.. but thats second period so theres not much more to look forward to.. and it kind of sucks.. i hate my lunch so much.. i just dont even talk to anyone really anymore.. except Erica sometimes.. and Tina sometimes.. but its not fun at all, its just stressful again. it sucks.. i would rather like eat in the library or something. BUT i wont.. and i just hate like everything about this school, and school in general but i cant wait to go to the high school cuz everyone said its so much better than any other school.. but the weird thing was at the football game the other week, i saw my 3rd grade teacher! it was INSANE.. woahh man i was just like.... oooh my god. and she actually remembered my name and recognized me.. which is also crazy. but anyways.. on to entertain myself for the night.. and try to stay optomistic! but i still want to listen to bright eyes.. grrr.
<3
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| *well if you wanted honesty thats all you had to say* |
[24 Oct 2004|06:39pm] |
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so long and goodnight..
ugh tomorrow is school. i utterly hate it. i thought it would be alright and it was for a bit but it really is just so much worse than last year. its so stupid how everyone told me all the cliques would go away but they just bigger and its so retarded.. AHH! i think i might just go crazy! gahhh. oh well i guess i have to deal with it? but i wish i didnt. a lot of people ive met are just really stupid.. and i hate my lunch so much i would rather like eat in the library or something. i used to look forward to lunch.. but now i hate it. its funny how one person even just looking at them can ruin your whole day. thats pretty much why i hate lunch.. but Andrew is always there to make me chuckle about things hahaa. hilarious. it seems like im losing some of my close friends and im not even gaining new friends either.. gah it sucks.. i hate it buttttt
theres always the weekends to relax and feel good :) now the weekends make me feel like its summer. and thats always good.
<3
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| *I need my wings* |
[23 Oct 2004|07:11pm] |
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Well if you wanted honesty, That's all you had to say.
I never want to let you down or have you go, it's better off this way.
For all the dirty looks,
For photographs your boyfriend took,
Remember when you broke your foot from jumping out the second floor?
I'm not okay.
I'm not okay.
I'm not okay.
You wear me out.
What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems?
(I'm not okay)
I told you time and time again you sing the words but still don't know what they mean
To be a joke and look
Another line without a hook
I held you close as we both shook for the last time
Take a good hard look!
I'm not okay.
I'm not okay.
I'm not okay.
You wear me out.
Forget about the dirty looks
The photographs your boyfriend took
You said you read me like a book, but the pages are all torn and frayed
I'm okay.
I'm okay!
I'm okay, now
(I'm okay, now)
wish you were really here listening to me
Because I'm telling you the truth
I mean this I'm okay!
(Trust me.)
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
Well, I'm not okay
I'm not o-fucking-kay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
(Okay)
My Chemical Romance
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| *your calling too late..* |
[18 Oct 2004|05:22pm] |
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i feel like im gonna puke. i hate feeling sick and tired, and whatnot.. i feel so cold but im burning up. im not going to religion tonight thank god. but i hate feeling so sick. i dry heaved a couple times. and had some throw up burps and my mom still thinks im playin sick. man oh man WE WILL PREVAIL! gahh i cant miss school anyways though. oh well i guess ill have to deal with it. this sucks.
<3
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| *im melting, im melting.. in your eyes* |
[15 Oct 2004|09:50pm] |
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tonight was awwwesome. i had a prettty good day and i was really happy about that and then after school i stayed after for photography.. I LOVE PHOTOGRAPHY ahh its so relaxed and Mr.Bergwall is SOOOO awesome, hes so cool. and chill, and just like.. awesome. but anyways i got some awesome things done and then i went home with jadaaa and karen lee! and we watched Halloween Resorection and it got us all in the October mood. i love it, but then we looked at the beauuutiful sky and had an emo moment ((haha chrisss)) and then we went to a haunted hayride and whatnot. it was sooooooo awesome and scary! it was ggggreat. and just sooo awesome. i went with jadaaa karen lee jessica and tina. were going to one tomorrow maybe.. maybe even the one we went to tonight. "talk dirty joe talk dirty!" HAHAHA karen i love you! anyways. um now im about to go to bed cuz im soo tired. goodnight children.
<3
certain people have been makin me feel very happy.
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| *so kiss me hard* |
[14 Oct 2004|05:16pm] |
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today was a much better day. yay. i feel good.
<3
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| *im not listening anyway* |
[12 Oct 2004|05:13pm] |
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its hard to say that i was wrong
its hard to say i miss you
since you've been gone its not the same
im in love
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